I listened to a sermon today titled, Your Plans: God’s Plans by Tim Keller. It was a good sermon, and I picked it because the season we are currently in with Nat’s job hunt. As a whole, the sermon touched many issues that I’m thinking about in my heart, but I was just going to share a few.
In his heart a man plans his course,
but the LORD determines his steps.
Proverbs 16:9
Tim used this verse to illustrate that we make our own choices and that we have free will, and yet, God is sovereign and the details are all planned out. He talked about how it’s hard for us, as people, to wrap our minds around this paradox, but it is the truth of who God is. It was a good reminder of how God is planning out all the details of our lives, and we can trust in that. Tim did make a point that we will be called accountable for our choices; consequences for bad choices. This made me think about how badly I want Nat to work at Sandia. Yes, I can push and push and push for Nat to get a job there and only be satisfied if we get an offer. God will allow us to go down that path, but we will have to face the consequences if we make that choice – unemployment, stress in our lives, etc. God will still be with us during that time and He will still know all the details and have planned that for us. Will it be wise for our family? No.
This leads me to Proverbs 16:3
Commit to the LORD whatever you do,
and your plans will succeed.
Tim made an excellent point this verse. When you first read it, you may think that if you commit your plans to the Lord that your execution will succeed. I have to admit that this was my thought lately about our future plans. “God, I want to be at a place where I will be excited and happy. You opened the door to Sandia, and I will commit my plan of wanting to be there to You”. I waited for the execution of this plan, and it failed.
Tim pointed out this verse is not about committing your plans to the Lord, but the opposite. It is about you committing yourself completely to the Lord. It is is about completely surrendering and trusting to the Lord. It’s about saying, “What You will, when You will, how you will”. At this point in the sermon, I was tearing up. Through this process, I have had a hard time letting go. When the first prospect of Sandia came up, I started getting excited. The excitement ran away from me, and I am hellbent on Sandia. Then, God shut the door on this job. Instead of relinquishing my control and my plans, I pushed harder towards Sandia – asking Nat to apply to more jobs and asking for his resume to be passed along. It has been so hard to let go of Sandia. And, as Tim kept preaching on this point, I felt that God was continually putting on my heart to let go – What I [God] will, when I will, how I will.
I liked how Tim ended the sermon talking about Christ. We will never completely surrender to God and trust him completely, but Christ surrendered to God completely in His life and death. If Christ loved me so much to surrender His life to God and die on the cross so that I can be reconciled to God, then I should be able to trust Him with my future. Reflecting on this truth is slowly helping me to die to myself in regards to my wants of our future.
Yes, deep down, I do want us to be in Albuquerque, and I will not be ashamed to pray for this. But, I will surrender my desires to what God may want for us if it is not Albuquerque. I know that the Lord will have great plans for us, something better than I can ever imagine. I do know this with my mind. Now, I just need to get my heart to a place where I can accept this, especially if it’s not what I have planned.